Getting back to blogging

Well, as most of you know i was laid off on the day of my last blog. i haven't really been online since then very much but i do plan to get on here more often. I am a little scared of what is going to happen with us financially but i know everything will work out. I have enjoyed being at home everyday though and have gotten a LOT accomplished in preparation for Carolina's arrival. I have lost my camera somewhere in my house but i have pics from recent events and plan to blog those in the next few days. Hope everyone is doing well :)

Carolina's Nursery Step #1

I am so excited! This past weekend I actually had my husband at home on a saturday! That almost never happens! So instead of being lazy, after going to the ball park for the boys practices, we started in Carolina's nursery. We moved everything (the gear) to a more suitable location and started spakling the walls! Justin spackled the holes and i got out the Mr Clean magic eraser and started cleaning off the scuffs and spots- this room used to be the boys playroom, an office, a scrapbook room, & a guest bedroom- therefore the walls were pretty dirty! After the spackle dried we sanded them down and went to Home Depot and bought the paint! SoOOO excited about that! Tomorrow while i am at work Justin and my father in law, Gary are going to start painting her room! By the time I get home it should be pink!

Here are a couple of pictures of the process ;o)

Romeo Cole

So yesterday Cole decided he wanted to dress like daddy for school. He wore a white button up shirt untucked, with kahki pants. He looked very cute!

But when i went to pick him up he told me he could never dress like daddy again. I asked him why and he said b/c all the girls go crazy and pull on his clothes.lol. That they think he is too cute and he can't handle it.lol.

The last time he dressed up was around Christmas time and he wore a suit, a jacket, white shirt, blank pants, and a zip up tie. THe girls broke his tie from pulling on it. At first he was mad, then Irey told him that it was b/c they all thought he was cute, so then he was ok with it. But he has vowed never to dress up again. lol

My little studd.

Justin's birthday

Well, Yesterday was Justin's birthday, he is now 28 like me lol :o) a geezer i know. He was lucky enough to take the day off, while i had to work :( But i had my 25 week doctor appointment at 3:15 so i was able to get off at 2:30 so he could go with me. We heard the heart beat and my next appt is for the Glucose Test- yuck. I've gained 5 lbs, which is more than i had wanted to gain but really not so bad in the grander scheme of things. I just woke up one day and had a big belly! Anyhow, everything else is fine with the baby. Afterwards, we went to Gary and Ann's for some dinner and cake. It was a really nice time, I love those people! :)

Wordless Wednesday

16 weeks Pregnant....I'm 25 weeks now, use your imagination! Big MAMA! :)

Exciting ...Restarting

So I have a clean living room, dining room, and kitchen at this very moment! This may not sound that exciting to most people but for me its like a miracle. I hosted my girlfriends bridal shower saturday morning and then had guest over for justin's birthday saturday night, so to still have a clean house is amazing. We had between 20 and 25 people in and out of our house this weekend.


justin and I really busted booty to get everything looking nice before our guests arrived on saturday so i vowed in my head that after they left i was cleaning up immediatley no matter how tired i was. It was too clean not to try and maintain it. So taht is what i did, as soon as they were gone ( granted the ladies helped me clean up alot! ) i started cleaning up, like as soon as i shut the door saying good by to the guest of honor. i was able to pick up all the mess and put the chairs back where they went and wash the few dishes i had to wash and start the dish washer and put the cake and other things away. ---CLEAN HOUSE again! :)

Then we had more guest come over in the evening for justin's bday. We just did hot dogs and chips and they had some drinks and what not. So while people were mingling i just picked up here and there, and then we went out to 3 $ Cafe to hang out ( i was glad b/c that meant i didn't have to clean up any mess :)) then sunday morning, i got up did the couple of dishes that were left wiped off the table and picked up a couple of things and again CLEAN HOUSE- let me rephrase- clean downstairs :) Did i mention all the laundry is done and put away! Told you its a miracle.

Tonight, I am starting the boys back on their chore schedule. I told them about this yesterday and hopefully they got all their whining out then.........we shall see.

I also and putting them in bed earlier than normal, baseball starts this weekend and i need to be prepared and not grumpy!

I am excited about the changes i plan on making in and for our household! Wish me luck!

Working Mom / Stay At Home Mom

I don't really know how to start this post because I don't really know what i want to say except my life long dream was to be a stay at home mom. I have never wanted to be the high powered, all mighty, working woman climbing to the top with the big boys. Which is probably why my couple of trys at the College thing never worked out so well.

I've just wanted to be a loving thoughtful respectful wife, a wonderful caring loving mother, a home maker, the person that makes my home inviting to my family and friends, a clean place where people want to be, and children run and play and laugh and sing songs and build forts and color on the walls and break windows and have tickle fights.

But right now, I am the full time working woman, part time maid, feels like part time mother, part time friend, part time wife. I think i need to realign some things here.

My house is a disaster most of the time- which is not entirely my fault- i have to perfectly capable little boys that can do things to help around the house, i have just never enforced it with them, so they come to expect if they don't do it I will. - that usually turns out to be the case. I jsut pick up after them b/c its easier. They have chores that are assigned to them and they used to do them every day but at some point we got out of the routine and I have never stepped back in to enforce it again.

here is my day:

I go to work at 8:30 every morning, get off at 4:30 and pick up the boys at 5:00ish, go home sit them down to do their homework, try to help them if needed by the time they are done gripping about having to do homework and completing it its usually about 5:45, then i try to find something to make for dinner, b/c most of the time i forget to take something out the night before, make something for dinner/eat dinner its now about 6:30/6:45. Clean up the kitchen X 2 b/c i probably didn't do it the day before because I was tired. so now it's about 7:15 and while i've been cleaning the kitchen or doing some other chore of my own the boys have been pulling things out of their toy boxes or begging me to play video games- which i say NO to on school nights everytime and i dont know why they even ask- i tell them go pick up your things and lets get ready for a shower, sometimes they pick up the stuff, sometimes they just look at me like i said something in Japanese or something, and i give up and just say GOOOOO. ( at some points during this time i might or might not loose my cool - especially if the dog gets in my way or pesters me or something) ok by 7:30 showers have begun and we rotate them out and by 8:00 both boys are bathed and in PJ's. about 2/5 nights they come out with no pj pants on b/c i haven't finished the laundry and they have no jamma pants. Most nights i let them lay in their beds and watch TV until 8:30 or 9:00- depending on if they are quiet or not and then i turn the TV off in their room and go sit in the recliner and exhale. Please keep in mind I am currently about 6 months pregant and really feeling it. My husband- AWESOME. he does this that or the other everytime he is off of work. He helps me in some way shape form or fashion- either laundry, dishes, taking out the trash- anything i need.

Please understand- and i really have no clue if anyone reads my blog but- i love my children, i love my husband, I made my bed and i lay in it everynight exhausted. This is not exaclty how i had imagined i would handle motherhood and working and all that but this is how my day goes. on the weekends, i clean everything else that didn't get cleaned during the week. so i spend my life currently- working, tutoring, cooking, cleaning, sleeping and not doing NEARLY enough loving on anyone.


i must make some adjustments.

Adjustments:

1.I have decided that starting on Monday we are going to go back to the boys doing their chores DAILY.

2. I will assign myself days of the week to do laundry and stick to them. If Justin is off work on laundry day, he can help if he wants to.

3. I will make time everyday to spend time with each boy, including my husband, individually- not cleaning or tutoring

4. Every weekend I will spend time in the baby's nursery until it is complete.

5. Everyday I will make sure my husband and children know they are more important to me than a clean house.

These are the things i plan to start with. i think its a good start. My sweet husband got promoted but we don't feel like it would be comfortable for me to quit working just yet or after the baby. We want to have a good nest egg and not have to worry about things. So hopefully by the end of this year maybe. I know it's alot of pressure for my husband to keep having to push himself to rise up the ladder and get promoted again and again so that i can stay at home with our children. All i want in the world is to be able to have my days go something like this:

Make breakfast for the boys, daddy, and carolina. Send daddy off to work with the lunch that i packed him from dinner left over's b/c i didn't forget to take something out to cook. Take something out of the freezer for tonights dinner, drive the big boys to school, take Carolina to the park afterwards for a morning walk/stroll, come home get ready for morning nap time, clean up the living room and vaccum, dust, scrub while Carolina is napping, get her up and fix some lunch, do a project ( when she's older ) or maybe go see daddy at his store for a few minutes to get out of the house, come back and pick up the big brothers from school or the bus stop ( i have only seen my boys get off the bus 3 times since they have been in school and Irey is in 2nd grade ) come home and fix them a snack, while i help with homework..............you get the idea.

Stay at Home moms that read this: please do not be offended if i in any way glamorized what you do on a daily basis, i realize that there is much more that goes into what you do, adn frankly i would love to find out first hand. i know you probably feel like a maid a babysitter and probably feel like you don't get enough credit for what you do. but if your husbands ever liked having a clean house and never told you that they appreciated coming home to a clean nice smelling house, send them to mine to take a peak at how incredibly hard it is to maintain any type of cleanliness while working 40 hours and trying to act like a normal person.


I am going to stop this post now b/c it just feels like i am beating on the keyboard with a furry. I want to be a stay at home mom. period. at this point in my life, i can't be. i know and trust that one day i will be a very proud, under appreciated, tired stay at home mom- and I can't wait. :) I love my husband for trying so hard to make it happen for us and our family. That's all.